grrrr.

have you ever woken up from a dream, believing that it was real?

that it hadn't happen only in your head.

you MAKE yourself belief that it really happened.

you can't decide whether it's something that's only in your head, or something that maybe God was trying to tell you.

I did. last night. And it was horrible. Well not that horrible.

aku mimpi si QC betunang suda. hahahaha. bangun2 tdur terus rasa mau menangis kay. ada kau? hahaha. and mimpi tu yang maciam betul2 jadi punya. apa nda heart attack terus :( yindu bha :(

so I checked his fb just now. and his latest status showed that he's in KK at the moment. God. this sucks. bole ka jumpa? maw jumpa abg shumbung boye? :(

everything is getting more&more&more complicated.

and btw, I read my old blog. the one I turned private. the one that I wrote the whole of the year 2010 in. and you know, most of it was about Mr MnM. and I don't know. it's like there's a knot inside my chest. and it damn well hurts.

and to be honest, i miss him. a lot.