100 days

"Hai, mana k****?" "Palui, knp jg kau tanya sa?" "Ai, bukan boyfriend kau ka tu Azreen?" "Sorry sikit aa, ndala kaliii sa maw ada boyfie cam dia" "Punyala, kejam jg kau ne" "ba, sepa jg kasi tinggal sepa kan?"

"Naa, tu na dia" "Jadi kenapa?" "Teda" *whispers* "100 hari" "apa?" "aa? teda" "bgs kau kctaw sa Firdaus, apa yang 100 hari?"

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As usual, for the past few days, I woke up at around 11. Working at a petrol station till 10 pm is obviously tiring okay. So gulik2 in bed for an hour or so and then, baru mandi. Besiap maw pg station lagi. Haihhh. So around 3 arrived at station wearing my DPA diskusi shirt, cuz I can't seem to find my work uniform. BAHAHAHA.

I brought my lappie and my broadband. So after 2 hours of staring at twitter, facebook and everything else on the internet, suddenly kak Amy called my name. *I was at the counter with her*. So I turned around. There he was, at pam 4. Gugur jantung aku, seriously. My heart literally stopped for 3 seconds and then it went pumping like mad. Then as usual, bagagal satu badan, especially my knees. I couldn't even stand up straight. Trip2 concentrating on my lappie supaya avoid awkward eye contact. Screw you for making me feel like this, I seriously hate you. With every guts in my body, I hate you.

Kau tunggu, karma will screw your life, just like you screwed mine. Kau pigang cakap sa ne.

Huwaaaaaa T-T

I thought I was over all of this. "Move on" suda kunu. Tapi masi lagi nervous macam nak mampus every time nampak dia. AKU NDA SUKA BA BGINI NE NDA SUKA NDA SUKA NDA SUKA, AKU CAKAP AKU NDA SUKA, AKU NDA SUKA LA S**L!

Cukup memaki. Cukup. Istighfar. Nite.