Aunt Emma.

She started talking about Uncle Law. And I could hear her voice starting to shake. But when I looked into her eyes, there were no tears. This, I thought, was one strong woman. Maybe because it's been more than a year since he passed, and the heart has gone numb from pain. Or maybe she's just good at hiding the pain.

And then she started talking of how she treated him, how he treated her. She told us what Uncle said before he passed; how life would be if he was no longer there for her. How he convinced her that no matter what she does, the children will take care of her when they've grown.

In my mind, I could only think of one thing, at the time. When I grow up, and if there's no one there for her, I'll be there. Cause she's like my 2nd mum. She's daddy's younger sister. She's cared for me like I was her own daughter. She even gave some of her jewelry to me. She buys me clothes. Every school holiday, I'd come here and stay with them. Throughout the time I took my driving license, she was the one who took care of me.

One day, I'll make you proud. Both of you. Both mum and Aunt Emma :')

New rules:

Forget him. Stop feeling so depressed. Let them be. Be happy for them. Ignore him. Avoid him. You'll forget him sooner or later. Mau block dia d fb mmg kau nda dpt punya zi. Jd paling2 just stop stalking him. Hide his posts. Stop thinking about him. Date other guys. Focus on other people. Focus on the things you love, excluding him. Stop including him whenever you think of your future. I know it's hard. But you've got to forget about the person who who forgot about you. He's not your guy. No matter how much you think he's perfect, his smiles, his eyes, his voice every time you see him in the hallways. He likes her, not you. 

Azinurazreen, you've got to move on. You're only left with 1 year and all this pain of putting a front, pretending you don't like him, pretending you're happy for them, it'll all be gone.