It hurts when people judge you just because you don't wear tudung. Especially when they're someone whom you considered a friend.

maybe post kali ni mesti membangkitkan kemarahan .

maybe a bit kasar .

and maybe ada yang makin berprasangka buruk dekat aku .

tapi cuba laa memahami .

aku nda minta banyak , aku minta masa jak .

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me : hye ;)

her : *looks at me, smirks, jeling*

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wearing tudung, a head scarf, or better known as a hijjab.

my bestie Pika ;)

ya, lawa kan? sangat lawa. macam macam jenis tudung yang ada.

aku tak pakai tudung, bukan semestinya aku perempuan murahan. wearing tudung is compulsory in Islam, I know. but I don't wanna be the girl who wears tudung just because it's compulsory. I don't wanna be the girl who wears tudung because people say I'm pretty in it. I don't wanna be the girl who wears tudung just to make an impression on people. I don't wanna be the girl who wears tudung just because it's a trend. Seriously? That's just totally fake.

Wearing tudung is like marriage, it's a life long commitment. Aku nemaw jadi perempuan tudung chipsmore. Kejap pakai, kejap tidak. Aku maw, sekali aku berubah jadi perempuan betudung, sampai bilabila laa aku betudung. I wanna be the girl who wears tudung because my heart opened up to God. I wanna be the girl who wears tudung because of Allah, not because of the tidbit matters like getting compliments. And aku maw betudung bila aku sure aku bole angkat tanggungan, like basic of a Muslim which is praying 5 times a day.

That's why it hurts me the most is when other people judge me JUST BECAUSE I DON'T WEAR TUDUNG. THEY JUMP TO STUPID CONCLUSIONS. Like just because I don't wear a tudung, I'm a wild child. Just because I don't wear tudung, I socialize to the point of no return. Just because I don't wear tudung, I'm a biatch. Just because I don't wear tudung, I don't take pride in being a Muslim. Just because I don't wear tudung, I don't pray. Just because I don't wear tudung, I'm a slut. Just because I don't wear tudung, I'm not worthy of any kindness. JUST BECAUSE. Haven't you heard of not to judge a book by its cover? GET TO KNOW ME FIRST, and if my impression on you was right, then treat me the way you want to. But mark my words, I'LL PROVE YOU WRONG.

Seteruk-teruk aku, aku tahu agamaku. Seteruk-teruk aku, aku nda perna kena pegang2 oleh lelaki. Seteruk-teruk aku, arak aku nda pena pegang. Seteruk-teruk aku, sigup tu nda wujud dalam kamus hidup aku. Seteruk-teruk aku, paling lambat aku pena balik rumah jam 11 malam.. Seteruk-teruk aku, ndalaa pena aku jejak kaki dekat clubclub. Seteruk-teruk aku, Al-Quran masih dapat aku baca. Seteruk-teruk aku, aku masih ada pegangan hidup. Seteruk-teruk aku..

I can't wait for the day that I give myself wholly to Allah. To not feel sad because I know He's there and to know that He laid out his plan for me, to know that He knows what's best for me.

I can't wait for that day that I'll start wearing tudung.

But for now, I just can't. It's just not my time yet. But I will, someday, InsyaAllah I will. I just hope you can understand that.

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