Taken but stuck in the past.

Was texting the boyfie. Wait, did I tell you? I think I haven't. I'm taken, by Syafiq Hamizan Mazlan. Been three weeks. Yup. Oh, I'm taken, I'm really happy. Yayyy. *monotone*

Anyways, I was texting boyfie when suddenly something played on my Windows Media Player. Something I thought I've deleted. His voice. And fk it ruined my mood. Like seriously.

I know this makes me look stupid. I have a boyfie but I'm still hung over a stupid ex crush. Wadefak kicii. Wadefak. Tp apa bole buat, bukan bole paksa perasaan kan. Kita ne bukan Tuhan.

Trust me, I pun x suke okayyyy. I hate this feeling. It's like I'm being unfair to boyfie. But geram juga laa kadang-kadang sama dia. Text kadangkadang. Lepastu pandai hilang. Lepastu ayatayat dia macam kita jak yang berabis maw jumpa dia. Maka dia pun sama. Mcm kita yang over desperado. Bikin gerits. Kba. Jan menyesal kalau saya menghilangkan diri kay babyy? Bye.

Haihhh. Bye la pulak. Remember when I said I was complicated? This is it. This is what I meant. At times I can be the most clingiest girl you can ever meet. And at other times I can push you away real hard. I won't reply your text and I won't answer your call. At times I can be the sweetest girl you'll ever meet. The one who treats you like you're the only guy in the world worth giving my time to. But at other times, I can be that bitch who treats you like shit. This is what I meant. I've gotten too used to being single that I don't know how the fk to be in a relationship. I'm not cut out for relationships. That's why I pushed away all the other guys. For two years, I've pushed away every single guy.

And I still have no idea why I didn't push you away.