Why do you come here, when you know I've got trouble enough?

Sekarang musim Voting Fever in UiTM. Minggu undi Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar. Ohsem-ohsem la ba calon this time. Abg ipar I pn kena calonkan taw *winkwink* Datin MPP Farida, laki anda mmg ohsemm. Hahahaha.

So, malam ne ada Rapat Umum. It's kinda where the candidates make their speech and stuff. I wanted to go...but....due to this irrational depression, I kinda took the decision to stay in the hostel. Allllll aloneeeee~

C Farid mmg pg, laki dia btanding. Misti maw support. Hahahaha. Happy for her :')

I wanted to go. I planned on wearing my mask, that fake smile. But just for tonight, I didn't have the strength.  I didn't have the strength to fake my smile all night long. I just couldn't. I could've gone without my fake smile, but I would've ruined my bestfriend's night. And I don't want that. Biarlah, hanya tuk malam ni, let her be happy and let everyone be happy without moody me.

Syadiqin Rambli, I don't know what happened between us. But I miss us. I really do. I hate not talking to you. I really hate it. You've been my best side from 1st semester. You stuck with me through thick and thin. Through heartbreaks and happiness. Through my smiles and tears. But yet, this is the 3rd time we had a fight. And I guess you're too tired to fight for me anymore. I've changed, I know. I know I know I know. I noticed my own change. I don't know why, I'm just sad all the time. But you decided to leave. Leave me in a mess, when I only wanted someone to fight for me, someone to say "it's going to be okay, i'm still here". But you left, just when I needed someone the most. I'm not blaming you for leaving, I'm not. I understand. I love you, bestfriend, and I read your tweet, I know you love me too. But I guess, you need some room and space from me. From new me. I just hope the old me comes back. I hope you give me time. And I hope you'll still be there when I come back. I'm sorry for hurting you baby. I really am. I miss us. Do take care.